getting old

So funny story. 2 days ago I go to sleep and feel GREAT. I wake up and my throat feels like it is going to fall off. I made an A on my first ear training test, had singing lessons too! Go to the healthplex and they said it's pharyngitis. BIG word for sore throat. Every time I swallow it is like knives man! So that sucks enough since it's my major and all.
As you know I had surgery this summer on my gallbladder. And the past two weeks NOTHING has stayed in my stomach and has gone straight through me. So when I take Imodium it works obviously. But that is not how to live-it will screw you up major. So I call my surgeon and he refers me to a gastro something something something..anyways big word for stomach doctor because obviously something is not right. And so I call my dad and we talk blah blah blah and so I have an appt. the 20th and I know I should not be scared however it is just a bit scary having to go to some big specialist building where I know no one and Lord knows what the heck tests they have to do and thus-I'm nervous because it just means I'm growing up. I am expected to do these things on my own, and it sucks. I would rather be 5 and lay in bed with pop-sickles. Instead I have to carry on with life-I'm being dramatic, but I think I'm allowed to be right now!
As I freak out this song comes on about God being faithful and man it is SO nice to KNOW and REST in the fact that God hold my life and your life in His hand. COMFORT.